Bring on the Memories

Today I attended my cousin's wedding.  It was a very emotional day for me.  But I think that becoming a mother somehow ups ALL of your emotions.  I never know when I'll be driving down the road and I hear a word and bam!  the hottness, the tears, the choking.  Um, wow..  Anyhow back to the wedding-  I really do love meaningful weddings.  And this one was sweet.  The officiator was very personable and to the point (big score in my book).  All of the family were present.  And since I mentioned family, I'll spill into our relationships.  There are 5 of us cousins that all grew up in this town.  And we used to go to our great grandmother's house, spend the night, and get away with all sorts of things.  We would play hide and seek outside in the dark, watch movies and just have fun.  Every holiday, major or minor, we had a cookout or get together.  We used to do it all and it was great!  Needless to say, over the years we've all gotten busier, members have passed away and the dynamics of our family aren't quite the same.  But I will never, ever forget the memories I have of our family.  Today's wedding symbolized the last of us cousins to either get married or have kids.  Bittersweet?!  Nah, we are just a growing family :)

The next emotions I had were recent memories.  The last wedding I attended was my brother's and his wife, Whitney.  Whitney is my very best friend and a great person who I am very proud to call my family now.  

And the wedding I was at before Justin & Whitney's was my own.  Jason & I had a sweet, country wedding.  Everything really represented us and our lives.  I couldn't have asked for a better day or better people to have been around.  That's been a little over a year now and I'm still happier than ever with that man.  Thanks to him I get to be happy, fiery, sad, and always myself. 

It doesn't hurt that I had the cutest date there today, does it?  Of course I had my baby boy as my handsome date!!  Jason lets me be myself, but Will brings out the very best in me.  And even more that I hope to be for that little boy. 

a little venting (!)

So no surprise to anyone who is married and a parent, but my husband and I have the DUMBEST arguments over the silliest things.  It is, however, getting to a point where we just don't really fight because we both know there is no need and its gonna be ok in the end anyways.  BUT I do think it's important to share housework.  And there will always be a good fight in me over that! 

Jason is a logger.  And by logger, I mean old timey, hands on work.  He works hard (!) and looong hours.  And to top it all off, he logs with draft mules-- old timer, right?! 

Can ya see their strain?

Anyhow, I've been to see him work.  I have personally seen him work and then come home exhausted.... but!  I do more than my share of hard work.  I work part time, go to school part time, have been doing ALL the chores at home, and making sure Will is where he is suppose to be with what he needs.  I go to the grocery, I do school work, and I make time to go see my [other] family members.  I am busy and I wear out easily. 

The point of this story... he has been off all week (getting ready for a camping trip this weekend, plus its been raining)  and still has done nothing.  So I blow up.  today.  at lunch.  And then he washes dishes and starts a load of laundry.  But my point was left out in {left} field.  Its not that I think he doesn't do anything all day, but that he doesn't realize that I don't just not do anything all day.  So a little help with the housework?  yes, please! 

I know my Jason is good and just because I am complaining about him now doesn't mean I always complain.  I just haven't been blogging long enough to write about the good things he does.  For instance, there is no words to describe the looks he & Will give each other when they play, or when he makes me coffee in the morning or brings me donuts at work.  Ok, enough of that.  Just figured I share that it does take 2 to tango but it also takes work & cooperation to do that same tango. 

                                aren't we cute??